The Joys AND Pains of Driving
Who knew that I would EVER be allowed to drive a car? Ever since I hit the legal age, I had been asking (to the point of begging) my mom to be allowed to drive but I was never given that opportunity -- not until a few months ago. I didn't ask her. I asked him (my dad). Teehee. I knew he'd say yes. And he did! He did! Aren't I daddy's little girl?? LOL.
The first time I drove all by myself was with an A/T Honda Civic hatchback -- my brother's. I was SO freakin' scared! My heart was pounding in my chest, my hands were all sweaty and I think I held my breath the entire time (if that were possible)!
I remember, I was at an intersection and I was supposed to go straight but then I ended up in the right turn lane because I was too afraid to change lanes. I reached my destination a good hour after I left the house because I took that right turn and had to go back to the original route. I was so relieved when I arrived. I don't think I got to enjoy that first drive. By now, the fear has gone. I've finally enjoyed driving but I prefer doing it in the wee hours of the morning or night where there are lesser cars on the road.
I discovered It's kinda nice to have a car around. You can go anywhere and anytime you like -- not that anything has ever stopped me from going out when I was car-less -- but it's more convenient to drive and you get to enjoy air conditioning as well. If you have somewhere to stop by before you get to where you want to go, you can do that. You can also bring loads of stuff and not be burdened of carrying it around. You can keep extra clothes just in case there's somewhere you need to go after work.
Ahhh... this is the life. Or is it??
The total turnoff of this new "gadget" is the gas. It's really, really expensive!What with the gas prices rising and all. There are times when I pay for a gas refill I'd think, "This could've been a new pair of shoes or a really good book". *Sigh* Oh well. The price you pay for a taste of luxury.
For now, I'm thinking of giving up this thing. It has its benefits, no doubt about that, but I think I was better off with out one. This might sound unheard of but I kinda enjoy riding public transportation. Dangerous, true, but hey, that's life. You never know what happens on the road even when you're the one driving.
First Day High? First Day Low!
I was so enthusiastic this morning when I was inspired to blog again. I had all these ideas on what to blog about and I couldn't wait to begin! Adrenaline was rushing through my veins and I was wide awake even if I had only slept a mere 4 hours -- Went out with the girls, got home at 1am and woke up at 6am because my stomach was begging for food.
The day went just as well as it wore on. Went to church with Intsik (It's Palm Sunday!) and together we had lunch with my Mom. The day couldn't have gone better than expected but I guess I spoke too soon.
I was on the afternoon shift, 2pm to 10pm today. As usual, I left the house at 1 expecting to arrive around 1:30 at The Hospital, punched in and merrily, went down to the station where I was assigned. The same old routine.
What happened after that was like a whirlwind and all in a blur in my mind. I can't even recall a particular thing that made it a busy-busy-BUSY day. It seemed like everything was just so so wrong. I can't post details here as I am bound to keep my mouth shut about patients and their crazy, out of this world, "what-the-hell-were-you-thinking?!" moments.
I felt like I was stuck in a nightmare that would end, hopefully, at 10pm. The high I felt earlier was suddenly sucked out of me and I was drained of every shred of energy and optimism. It felt like what I had this morning was from a different time in another world.
I'm just glad that it's over. The nightmare did end but not at 10pm. The shift never ends on time. It was somewhere near 11 when I punched out. I didn't look. I didn't care. I just wanted to go home and crawl to bed.
I hope tomorrow will be a better day.
P.S.
What cheered me up during the entire 8 hour shift was dinner! Barbecue with the 2C staff.. =)
Blogging Again!
As the title states, I'm blogging again! Yey!
Year 2007 to early 2009. There I was blogging to my heart's content when I suddenly stopped. I don't know why. It just happens to me sometimes. For instance, I like doing something and I do it but then it comes to a point when I just need a break from doing it. I guess blogging became more of a chore for me and simply put, I don't want to do chores! LOL. Seriously though, I don't want to do something if I'm not enjoying it, do you? So we agree on that. And here I am blogging to my heart's content -- again!
So there. I stayed off the blogging radars for about a year and a half. I went offline. What was I doing the entire time? Working -- for real. I wasn't typing away behind a keyboard nor did I have a monitor full of Firefox tabs and late night chat discussions with The Boss. I was, and still am, working my a$$ off as a staff nurse in a tertiary hospital. I was practicing my profession -- finally!
I made a few people happier with that decision namely, my parents. Well, whose parents wouldn't? Two years and counting and I still wasn't "working". I don't think they considered what I did online as "working" as I didn't have an office to go to, or stuff regular employees do. All I did was stay at home and sit behind the laptop.
Was I happy going offline? Yeah... I guess. Looking back, I did find it quite, for a lack of better words -- lonely. Like I said, I just stayed at home. I did go out when it was payday (yey!) or hang out with friends -- yes, the same old friends during The Prehistoric Era (I love you girls!). But most of all, I missed people. I missed being around them and interacting with them even if they're only strangers. So, that's probably one of the reasons I went out -- to live (with people) again.
So it's official, I'm back and I made this new blog just for the occasion. I've titled it, The Chronicles of Zee. I'll be blogging about lots of stuff and I'm so excited! I hope you are too!
See ya 'round.
-Z.
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